It's unfortunate that the "reality" show that was on TV only showed the sterotypical OCD (checking, counting, etc.) but there are so many other facets of this disorder. I am OCD about everything. The easiest way to describe my OCD is I live my life based on probabilities. I am constantly expecting the worse to happen and therefore avoid any situation that would cause me to feel uncomfortable. I am in a constant state of worry. I was diagnosed with OCD, Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety. I have been on various medications, however nothing relieves the distress. I am also sensitive to medication.

I'm recently started taking Lamictal because they feel that I may have bi-polar tendencies, but because I have more depression than mania my therapists refuses to change my diagnosis.

I don't like constantly trying to explain to people how frustrating it is for me. At times I really just want to die. I've had one attempt. Just really trying to find positive things to think about so I can get through each day.