Since I've had T. My therapist came thru surgery ok. But they arent giving out any details. Dont know if that is good or bad. I am worried. But trying not to get overwhelmed by feelings of it. I have been trying to stay as busy as possible to keep my mind off problems and such. But it seems that only keeps me from dealing with what I need to deal with. I never can seem to find the healthy balance I need. And maintain it. I dont know how people do it. And with my physical disablities its not easy to keep up either. I feel so for lack of a better word.. raped of life in a way that my physical and mental disablities limit me so much now. More my physical now . I cant even enjoy long walks.. bicycle riding, Things that would give me exercise . I love my scrapbooking and quilting.. I do. but I am stuck to a chair. Selfish of me to say huh? I guess till you've had to do it ,, its hard to understand. Now I am not sure where this goes because i am getting into more of other things like health issues. I guess its a rant now. T used to help me get thru these weeks of self degradation, pain, issues. I dont have anyone who understands now like he does. and I've got a month at least till I see him again. What do I do till then?