I have been diagnosed with several mental and physical ailments, including bipolar. My Grandma had a severe form of it and it took it's toll on the family. I wonder how much of a toll my problems have taken. The fact most of my family has kept their distance and I get very few calls from any of them, including my kids, gives me my answers I guess. If not for this forum I wouldn't have anyone to talk to. I try to stay optimistic but it's increasingly difficult. I also have Borderline Personality and PTSD, along with fibromyalgia and arthritis throughout my spine and hips. I am 46 and feel 106. At 35 I worked 70 physical hours a week, then everything hit virtually at the same time.