Thanks for your response. It's funny - as far as the email went, I didn't want to put exactly what it was because even with the anomynity (sp?) of the internet, I was paranoid that someone would somehow read this and know it was me. It was a photograph of something, and in the background of the photo was a part of the male anatomy. In all honesty, not in the best taste, and I can understand him being upset, but the level at which he got upset wasn't justified, at least IMO. I feel like an abused wife, and I hate it. Because there are so many times I WANT to leave, and then I forgive and just go back to doing what I am doing. And when he is great, he's great. But the opposite also holds true. He told my son that my son was better off without him one night and that he was leaving (which I thought was awful), and I stood there shocked and watched my poor son sob over the thought. Every time I think of leaving, that is what I think of. I told my sister that I just wanted to get through the holidays, and she said I said the same exact thing last year. I'm an intelligent person, I just don't know why this is so hard.