I've been really stuck in a bad place lately. I have come here to PC some and talked about things that were going on. I have PTSD and have been having nightmares. It is bad enough to be disturbed during the day due to intrusive thoughts, but when you are haunted by night w/ more thoughs it sure does make for a most difficult day upon waking. My dreams have really been missing w/ me lately. I have started having panic attacks again as well.

I had an appointment w/ the T today and I actually got support and hope that these feeling will go away. The T asked me to continue to write about what I dream it gives a much more clear view of things then what my words do at the moment. It lets her in with a different view.

We are working on repairing the traumatized brain. The left side and the right side are telling each different things of one side is much stronger then the other. I am not so sure about all this traumatized brain stuff. We worked on a trauma loop, that is what she called it. It is a trigger, then your response or emotion, then your choice of fight, flight or freeze. The flip side of this is changing the trauma loop and reversing how it affects you. So it's the trigger, how would you have liked to have felt, instead of fight, flight or freeze what emotion do or would you like to feel. Something positive.

This is incredibly difficult for me to figure out. Has anyone else ever heard of this or anything related to this. I am supposed to record my dreams, analyze them if I can, then write a new positive ending for the dream. My T specializes in trauma's. I believe her I do, but this all sounds a little strange to me. If you have anything to add please do. I'd love to hear your thoughts.