Ugh. I often feel embarrassed about things I've said in therapy, and sometimes it makes me feel like I want to run away and never go back! But I keep turning up and I keep dealing with the embarrassment, and I keep improving as a result, even though my cringe meter is set to 11. I am always telling myself that revealing the embarrassing stuff is going to help the therapy along, but I guess I don't 100% believe that, just as I don't 100% trust my T yet. I had a big freak out last week (I wrote about it on here) where I felt like I had invaded her privacy, and I completely overreacted, then felt super embarrassed for telling her. This is still making me worry that she is thinking "what a weirdo" ... but I guess I just have to let go of that fear of being judged, someway and somehow. Now I keep thinking of other things that I can potentially be embarrassed about (for instance, thinking about telling her at some point about the way I feel about her ) and trying to find a way to cover these things up. Like to pretend I am actually really normal and not crazy in the head at all, which of course is a complete fallacy considering I was in hospital for 6 weeks after suffering a major breakdown, and am now in therapy 2x a week to deal with that, plus a lifetime of crap.

Has anyone else felt the same way? How did you overcome the embarrassment and self-censorship if so??? This fear of being judged really is not useful, I can see that, but I don't know how to overcome it...