Been a while since I last visted...almost a year...have had no real bouts with depressions...anxiety attacks...yes...but have somewhat learned to control them with breathing and knowing they will pass...my biggest issue is this time of the year living in alaska...very dark now..and horribly cold...this is the time I start thinking about the past...and get scared with the possibility of getting hit with another severe bout of depression...scares the you know what out of me...my bouts leave me in the hospital psyche ward...which is not the place to be...we need better help for mental illneseses ....here and everywhere else...anyways..just wanted to vent...especially with the latest tragedies...