I've had major depressive disorder for at least 12 years now and due to financial/insurance problems will soon be ending mental health services and no longer seeing a therapist--I'll just be going to a regular physician for meds. For as long as I can remember, I've felt empty and alone. I only have one friend and have difficulty making new friends. I feel like no one will ever truly understand me which causes me to feel so empty inside. I just wonder if I'll ever get rid of this emptiness or if I'm just hardwired to be this way--and if I am hardwired that way how can I live a life free of misery?