I feel sad and depressed. Yesterday was my birthday and I got birthday wishes from my son and and my sister (which I kind of expected) but none from my friends. At least that's what I think of them as. Oh, I did get some birthday wishes from my Facebook friends and a friend on PC but none from the people I have considered good friends. Maybe it's me that's a good friend (I have helped out 2 of them a lot). Whatever the case, I haven't got much back from them.
So I feel sad and negelected. I also feel really depressed about my social phobia. Even going out to see my son was stressful and I felt like I was socially inept.
Because of all of this I feel depressed and wish that I was more adept socially and that I had real friends not users.