Thank you for the reply, and I am sorry you battle with similar issues. I have seen a Neurologist, and my regular Physician, and both defer to the diagnosis of this being an exacerbation of a Traumatic response. My physician referred me for Physical therapy because my neck is starting to get so knotted from the jerking, plus a muscle relaxor. The Neurologist was very polite and sympathetic at one point I kept trying to apologize for the disruptive speech and movements, because I felt so embarrassed, I couldn’t get them to stop, and the more I tried the worse it got. Finally he just took my hand and told me it’s alright, and there was nothing to apologize for, and made sure I was receiving Psychiatric treatment.

The Trauma Therapist worked on helping me to monitor myself with imagery and deep breathing, but explained, that my nervous system is firing off in multiple areas at once…kind of like a popcorn kettle full of uncooked popcorn. It has calmed down some, but it will set off again, when under duress, like trying to talk about the trauma, or I feel really pressured. I am sure it will work its way out at some point, I sure hope that this wont keep reoccurring, although the body is getting pretty creative at getting the minds attention of late…

I am so sorry you have to run away to find peace, but so can relate for the need to do it, and I hope that you take care when this happens to you, because I know at least, with my episodes I loose track of what is going on in the environment.