I wish I did have a T. I am currently awaiting a new one but it's been a couple of months since my last one found herself a better job. She referred me to another person but he hasn't got the room for another patient so I'm in limbo. I am currently waiting for a lot of things. I'm in a holding pattern with most areas of my life. It's frustrating.
Thanks to all for the support and excellent advice. I only wish that reading your advice could translate into real progress in my daily life but all the good intentions seem to seep right out of my ears when I'm out in the real world. I read your replies and they make complete sense but then I slide into my dysfunctional ways when out "there"
I need someone over my shoulder at all times to remind me when I'm doing something unproductive or to notice when I'm falling back into bad behaviours. I wish I had a friend here, in my real world.
Thanks again everyone. I only wish I could help you all like you help me. Sadly, I suck at advice and must seem pretty selfish not jumping into other threads to give my 2 cents but I would probably just get it wrong and cause more harm than good.
take care
tina

"hold me now, I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking......maybe six feet ain't so far down"