Hm ok maybe 2 days isn’t that long in the grand scheme of things, but being paranoid as well as AvPD the glaring blankness of this unreplied to thread is rather freaking me out

(Apart from the hugs from Retro Chic – thank you . Ohhhh and the thanks from Quizzicle, thank you too .)

Perhaps no-one can relate after all, I never do seem to fit in any category neatly. Neither properly PPD and only marginally BPD and though definitely AvPD, behaviourally I don’t really fit either.

Well what the hell seeing as how this is a barely frequented forum I’ll just keep talking to myself .

Have been off my trolley for forty years and never had an official dx until the last month. I never could find myself in any of the descriptions and AvPD is the very last thing I would have thought applied to me. Now that I am seeing a clinical psychologist who actually takes me seriously, I can see how AvPD really does fit – at least in terms of motives feelings and thoughts. Not so much in behaviour though.

Mind you this P tells me I have strong borderline traits too, and I’m not sure about that one at all.

Pdoc tells me I’m paranoid personality disorder, which I could have told him that, except that I’ve lived with it for so long I now recognize when I’m being truly paranoid so I don’t really fit that category properly.

For some reason the categories don’t allow for self awareness, once you KNOW what’s going on inside your own head, suddenly you don’t fit the dx anymore. And don’t get taken seriously and don’t get help… you’ve got to be swinging from the chandeliers to get help. If you just go in and ask for it, somehow that makes them think you’re not really ill or in need of help. Catch 22…

Ah well that’s my ramble for the day. Anyone else feel like chipping in and talking about themselves, feel free to do so

Torn