I've had enough. I try to be there for people and I get it thrown back at my face. I don't care if I'm a b&tch or a hypocrite. I choose to be a loner and I deserve it. And there's people on facebook posting pictures of what annoys them. This annoys me. Yeah it's annoying when someone writes that they hate people who moan a lot or do stupid things. Well we're not all perfect. One voice told me I will die at 26 and if this is true then I am relieved. Facebook is a b**ch. It's the cause of my moods. I keep going on, it's addicting. But I need some time to myself. I want to study and I like being on my own. I am comfortable on my own. I am telling this mood swing to go away and it's working so far. I'm stressed at the moment. Arrghh... go away facebook. You keep distracting me from studying. I've had enough with some people. I say hello I hope you are okay and then seconds later... he is offline. He is the one who made me upset and said my other friend is a great friend but he didn't say that to me on his status I commented on. To be honest, I am a bit obsessive and my obessive crush on him or whatever is annoying. I'm a b**tch and I am horrible. It's funny how people say I'm special or whatever and I'm treated as if I'm sh**t to people. I was a piece of dirt to people when I was at high school. I was bullied. Boys used to use me and one boy pretended to fancy me for money but it was only a bet with his mates. And another I had a crush on and my friend from school said he called me ugly behind my back. :'( I had no support at high school so this is why probably why I'm so affected. I'm crying right now. At the end of my life, I hope I won't have a bad life review and I do not want to be shouted at by God. I can't help being a bad person. Urgh...... I've failed you God. I've failed everyone. I'm the worst friend ever.