I keep wanting to respond to this thread but something keeps stopping me. So I'm taking that something and stomping it to the ground lol.

when I cut, I didn't have hundreds of scars on my arms and legs... I maintained wounds lol. What I mean is, on my hand I had four cuts and my arm one. I heal fast so every day, sometimes twice or three times a day, I would reopen the existing cuts. sounds gross, huh. But I kept cutting deeper and deeper in the same one. hurt so much more than making a fresh cut too. I think that was the point. but anyways, I still get the urge to do it. It's just something that you have to accept and let it be normal.

Brush teeth, check. comb hair, check. Don't cut, check. Take meds, check. don't drink beer, check. lol.