I am really starting to suffer with this severe cold/flu. I wish I had the courage to go to my local hospital and get some medicine for it, but I just have to deal with it with no medicine. My stethoscope that I had from my nursing school days (before the mental breakdown, what fun was that to lose all the friends that I had made by declaring in front of class that I am a servant of the ancient Egyptian deities, fun times with schizophrenia. Oh well, still hurts) has lost the ear pieces so now I can't check my lungs for any crackling sounds like I did back in 2010 for the pneumonia I had (I had to fight to go then even with the sounds in my lungs). I just would get shot down asking to go. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents but sometimes they can be so hardheaded or they think that since I have schizophrenia, I am just being paranoid. No honey, paranoid was me gathering up my dad's hair, after my mom cut his hair, to do protection magic for him. I just want to feel better from this sickness!