Hi Torn Mind,
I'm glad you found a psychologist who will listen to you. I'm sorry I have not responded sooner to your posts. Often I type replies to posts, but don't send them at the risk of sounding stupid.

I really can relate to the feelings of paranoia - it's a constant struggle for me. I work in an office and have a fairly high level of responsibility where I work - People will come to me for answers and I always feel like crying - I do not feel capable or competent.

I've been working with a psychologist for 4 years now, and to be honest I can't see myself ever getting "better".

I will try to post more later. Need to work now.

Take care.