is a state in which I will never be. Oh I may look happy and act happy, but you do not know the torcher in my mind. They say happiness comes from inside you, there is no happiness there, only terror and anguish. How can you ever find happiness inside of you when in side you are pure evil and vielness. For every action there is a reaction and my every action has brought me nothing but the reactions of pain and suffering. It is I who have brought them upon my self. for evil lives in me. You can surly feel empathy with me, but you can never know untill you have actually walked in my shoes. Dont guess at how it feels, you will never guess right.