Hi ~ My gosh, if you've been on that medication for 7 years, no doubt you've accomodated to it. Ask your doctor about another similar medication that would work for you, but doesn't make you gain weight. Personally i don't know of one.

As for suicide thoughts, remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem! Things won't always be this way. Things ALWAYS change. So try to rid yourself of these thought, PLEASE? You are a vital human being! People would be devastated if something happened to you! You may not think so, but it's TRUE! And if you're concerned about your weight, you REALLY don't want to die, correct???

Please let us (me) know what your doctor says about your medication, will you? I'd really like to know. God bless and please take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee