Open eyes thank you for your insight. According to the T, the traumatized brain develops differently then the normal brain. The traumatized part can't develop in the way it was meant to and overdevelops in certain areas. This causes overreactions to simple things or unresponsiveness to other more serious things. For example overreacting when someone raises there voice or this is a horrible example but it is one that applies. I hate to say it to a fellow animal lover but I can't think of a more appropriate explanation......You hear stories of people who kills and torture animals and a bi standard watches an it has no affect on them. Sorry for the horrible example. But unfortunately folks really do that.

Anyway I am working on changing the rationalizing and feeling part of my brain, the frontal lobe, to activate the parts that would sence positive feelings. That point is mostly void for me. I have no positive feelings about myself or life's circumstances. The T is working on helping me change negatives into positives in a way that will strengthen that part of my brain to allow positives thoughts to thrive. Eventually I will not have to call on other parts of my brain on purpose to come up w/ a positive thought about myself or life's situations. As one part gets stronger other parts do not have to work so hard to compensate. The final goal is for the frontal lobe responsible for reasoning, being rational, and emotions to fire at the right time w/ the correct response. I know my T specializes in trauma's. She has worked w/ vets, school shooting victims, fire victims, mass murder survivors, as well as rape, CSA, and many other life changing events. I do trust her to some extent. I'm just not sure about all this. She has even given me printed info on how this works. I wish I could find it now. I lose everything and there is no since looking for it. It will turn up eventually. I was just curious if anyone had heard of this. I'm a skeptic anyway, this sounds skeptical to me. But I'm not a trained professional. The T did find info to help me see it is real. But folks can find info to prove aliens are real to. So I don't know. Right now I don't think much could make things worse so I have to try.