Yes, I understand what you are saying here. I have not heard it explained that way, but it makes sense. However, what I have also laid out in my post is another "core" problem that also has to be understood as well.

I would have to say Big Mama, it is about "understanding "both"" at the same time.
I have that challenge myself and I am "still" working through it. I can totally relate to the "loud voice" trigger as well. Yes, I can see what your T is saying to you, I agree that the tramatized brain does develope differently, I see it in myself.

I can also see why you are struggling with it too, me too, because it is hard to understand how we can learn to slowly "identify" and then "slowly repair" as well.
It is a "lot" of work and hard to understand.

I find for myself that because I have PTSD and the responses are now "magnified" I often just "respond" and the only thing I can do is "observe" when I do respond and then "learn" what it means and why it is there. And how to slowly work on it.

I don't think they know exactly "how" the brain is doing this, but they have gained alot of knowledge in how to treat it in a way that helps the patients that are truely challenged by it.

What I "can" tell you Big Mama is that as you begin to notice how you are making "gains" on it, you will start to understand it more. It is hard work, but you can learn how to slowly work through it. I am not going to lie, I am still challenged myself, however I am slowly understanding it better. I have to admit that some days, actually many days, I have to dig very deep and continue to give myself permission to allow myself to heal and not be so defeated emotionally. I have to say, that it would sure be so helpful if other people understood how much work it really is. It is nice to connect with others that can relate and support.

Open Eyes