Do I have so few redeeming qualities that women have no reason to respond or acknowledge my efforts to socialize with them? No matter what I do I universally experience the same issues with women, and I am increasingly feeling that either a) women are all the same, or b) that there is something inherently wrong with me. Am I so bad, so undesirable, that I can't make it into a conversation with a woman? People use the expression of getting their 'foot in the door,' but all I am finding are doorless, brick walls, and it's been that way for more years than I care to talk about.

I don't make threads on PC about relationships anymore because nobody is able to understand the frustrations I have and the extreme, suicidal hopelessness that I struggle with every single day. I invest the money and the time, I am in the clubs, I do volunteer work, in fact I am out so much I am almost never home anymore. What more can I POSSIBLY do to meet someone that can like me? People tell me the same, meaningless advice about clubs, confidence, etc. without being able to comprehend how little difference those seem to make in my life.

As I recently wrote in a long entry in my diary maybe I have the perfect combination of issues for people the world over to want nothing to do with me. I have Asperger's Syndrome, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, severe anxiety, a skin disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a speech impediment, am recovering from self-harm, and have a long and extensive history of physical and sexual abuse. I've done 14 years of different kinds of therapies to fix me but more than likely there is nothing I can do about a lot of these.

What am I supposed to do to meet someone that can like me? People don't understand how much of a challenge it is for me to talk and have conversations. Such a simple and basic task for the average Joe but a physical roadblock for me. It makes such a fantastic impression on women when I struggle to make coherent sentences and follow through with the conversation. Approaching a new woman and starting a conversation with her is doomed to fail from the start. Conversations will always be a challenge for me. Is there a woman that exists that can accept this?

And online, which I can communicate better, women don't respond to me on dating websites.

I am tired of being alone and feel like there is absolutely no point in attempting to interact with women because no woman can possibly accept someone like me.