I totally feel that way, right now even. And you got me thinking with episodes vs. emotions vs. mood shift. Wtf is really an episode?
What if I'm some kind of fraud and some other type of crazy and don't have bp? Sometimes others' issues here are so much worse than mine, and sometimes I think I'm worse off than others.

I've had some intense mood swings lately, is that just me, my personality, my highly sensitive nature?

Just got back from pdoc, and according to her - yes i still have bp, but I seem to have it managed atm. Maybe this board is just big, and maybe bp is just big with a wide range of experiences. Someone last week mentioned a greater interest in celebrities when they have bp. I'm not that way. There is too much more to people than their bp. Bp will have nothing to do with whether i like or dislike someone.

Anyway, whether we belong here or not, is for us to decide in the moment. I take a break sometimes. I think you do too. My pdoc seems to think my participation in an online bp support group is a form of psychotherapy. So if that's true, maybe it's not always going to be easy or comfortable. idk..