Ah, yes, I have T on Tuesdays as well, and you are right, it often takes that amount of time for me to get my thoughts together. It is nice to hear what your T has to say.
Actually, if you can remember, can you ask her for that info again on what you discussed here? I would love to read it myself because I like to gather everything I can learn about PTSD. Anything that gives me more ways to understand it and even have it to show my husband to explain to him that I really am trying, is also helpful.

I have been expaining it in a very similar way, but it is always nice to have any way to discribe it, as you know, the one thing PTSD sufferers do is constantly try to put the challenge of it into words.

I can see how I have worked around trama's most of my life. However, when I experienced my last trama, something changed and unfortunately it wasn't addressed the right way so I got worse and developed full blown PTSD.

When I listened to Dr. Phil talking to parents of this latest trajedy and telling them how they had to address this with their children, even for themselves, I realized even more how that was not done properly with me. All the warning signs he discribed happened to me.

When I went to the psychward, everything I asked for was what they should have done. They didn't listen and instead, further tramatized me. They even allowed my family members to visit me and yell at me and blame me. Everything I uttered is in my file and I definitely expressed all the red flags that without question showed that I was a "trama victim".

NO ONE asked to speak to my family members to explain to them what to look for and how to help me. As a result, my family was "mean" to me and continued to blame me for something I truely could not help. And I grew worse, and continued to be blamed even more. This is wrong. I do wonder constantly if I would have avoided getting this bad had I had the right help right away.

I know this happens to others as well, and honestly, I want to scream it out from some place where others will hear, it is wrong and how important it is to "help and support" trama victims the right way.

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