Thanks for the replies.

I'm just so confused right now, hey. But like, i don't feel that i'm in any real danger or that things are going to get worse unless there's another fight between us.
It probably sounds like it's all his fault, but even my mum said that she understands why we had the indicent (the physical violence/threat) so that must say something. If my own mother says its my fault then it must be, surely.