Chronic depression seems to be like alcoholism or addictions. Even after you have beaten the major episode, you are always fighting against slipping back into the darkness. Exept for the fact that no one makes a decision to start being depressed, the relapses act the same.

This time of year is really hard. Because the holidays are supposed to be happy times spent with the people we love, the depression sticks out more. I try to stay away from the crowds during the holidays even more than usual because the music and atmosphere is just a reminder of how wrong things feel inside.

Sam2