Thanks guys.

I guess what I want is to be able to freely express myself and let everything hang out, and not be fearful or ashamed of that. There are times when I feel absolutely mortified and I say to myself, "That's the last time I tell T anything embarrassing or crazy". I really want to get over the cringe factor of telling her I felt like I invaded her privacy because my panicked, OTT reaction felt like I was about 12 years old and admitting to have shoplifted or something like that. Urgh...

Anyway I have my last session for the year today and I am going to practice saying crazy stuff and just dealing with it. I hope it will be liberating as well as mortifying.