Hi Charly,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so down.. It's so hard to keep fighting and struggling when it all seems hopeless
A question for you.. Is this your first depression? If so .. there is Hope, I promise. If it isn't then you can remember coming out of a depression.. Try and hold on to "that" feeling. Meanwhile, Oh I so know how hard it is to drag myself out of bed and shower or go outside (cringe) yes I know ! Just drag yourself kicking and screaming to "one" of these tremendous event each day, It will help, maybe not right away but it will.
Depression sucks yes indeed ! Just hang on.