Hey Boss...Id say your Schizotypal...since you have odd disorganized speech as well as all the other symptoms you describe...just a guess...Anyway, when did you start your meds?...because some meds really do make your memory pretty bad...Mine is not to great too...Wait a sec, what did I want say hummmm damn oh well...hehehe No really some meds mess the memory up[...Are you seeing a psychairtrist? and cognitive therapy seems to help with the negative thoughts change them to positive...Where you start feeling a little better about yourself it takes some work and awhile but may be beneficial to you..Talk with a therapist as well..