Im glad your doing better. I had a similar fight with my fiance a few months ago and when he tried to leave i broke out a glass window cutting my hand up badly. I didnt try hurting him though as i was more leaning to hurting myself. I then had a panic attack followed by a seziure. After that he calmed me down and we went to sleep. The tension lasted about a week or so between us and it was hard to talk about but things did get better and eventually we talked about what had happened. He knew that it wasnt me and that the meds were causing me to be irrational even when i thought i was being rational. Im here for you if ever you need to talk and i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers Take care