Update.....I was able to make some phone calls yesterday and I found a counseling/ psychiatric group with at least one member who claims to be knowledgeable when it cones to working with people with BPD who are willing to evaluate/diagnose a self-paid person on their first visit. They are a bit pricey, but the price seems reasonable if they are truely willing to do all of that the first time I walk in the door.

I'm currently in a good frame of time. You know, the one that you convince yourself that the worst is over and you can cope now. I know it's only a state of mind and it can go as fast as it comes, particularly since I had a major temper tantrum and broke down while shopping yesterday, but it's still a nice pipe dream albeit only in passing. I have told myself the next tine I succumb and start sinking in to the depths of despair, that I'll make the call to set the appointment. In the meantime, I'll enjoy the little temporary illusion I have going that I'll be alright and see just how long I can make the illusion last.