Set the appointment. I wouldn't wait, if you can. I was just going to suggest looking around for those that specialize either in personality disorders or bpd itself but you've found one. Don't remain in denial and think in the moment you're ok so it will last and last. You and I both already know that it doesn't. It can but not without help and as much as anyone else here, you need it! Talking it out helps on PC forums but it's just not enough you know? Get that help, it will be worth every penny.