the problem is that i have done nothing to help myself, with in my family depression is see as something that everyone should just get over it. My parents especially. The signs were always there but they refused to see it, i was a cutter when teenager, droped out of law school, started using drugs and alcohol...i even started to believe that it was all in my head. but I need to do something and i m trying to educate myself, neeed to forget about this nightmare ...