I had the appointment today.. I had a hard time deciding whether or not to let her know about my suicidal thoughts..but I told her. It was hard to do since my mom was having her appointment at the same time. Overall..I feel that letting her know what the right decision.

I am now prescribed 100 mg trazodone to help me get to sleep, 300 mg lithium once a day, continuing my adderall, she is going to set me up with a therapist, and even though she is retiring next month..she made another appointment with me 2 weeks from now. I hope this helps. Thank you for the support, everyone here definitely helped me reach this point..