I know I haven't posted anything for a long time and I feel really nervous asking for support but if anyone could spare a hug I could really use it....

T today was awful, one of those snotty, shivering wreck sessions where I was totally out of reach. I left feeling like I completely contaminated her with my poison and feeling really unwanted, like she couldn't wait to get rid of me..... now I don't see her for nearly 3 weeks if I go back.

Sorry, feeling very sorry for myself and very alone.....