I'll always have hugs for you, Nelliecat!
I'm really sorry you had such a rough session - hang in there, lovely. I care about you and want you around, and I'm positive your T does too. Although with emotions running high, I can completely understand how it might not seem that way right now.
If you'd like to (or need to) PM me and vent/chat, please do! I'll be thinking of you and sending positive vibes in your direction!