I'm pretty bad recently.

The stress with my father has me triggered so bad. Other stress has me triggered so bad. Obsessed to find a new place ASAP. Feeling flat but also like I'm a volcano right before the explosion.

Feeling paranoid and having strange thoughts. Hard to explain, this was happening before but still going on....

Want to scream and scream until it's over.... But have to sit here and behave normal. I feel my face is like frozen. I can feel it this time: zombie face. I can feel it.... Can't seem to get my muscles to smile....

Sorry if I'm not responding to other questions very well or very much. Or if I don't make sense or saying weird things... or hard to follow, I can't tell. Just... feeling completely off the track.

Restarted my lithium but feeling really weird.