Open I set here and cry more then now then I have in 38 years. Sometimes it is due to pain, sometime's it's fear, hurt, and sometimes it's the sad kind of good. (yep I'm crazy, that makes no since) I am getting out pain, I'm being heard for the first, I'm being understood for the first time,and it is making me remember things that have been long forgotten. It takes a few days to feel better but it does come and the fond memory of being heard and understood take over and I feel like it just might be ok. It always is ok, I just haven't come to realize it yet.

Rose you are so strong. Good for you for taking a stand for someone else. Even if it was in a quiet unknowing way. You did what was right because you would want someone to do the same for you. I'm sure to many times in your life you had no one to fight your battles with you, not for you, but with you. We are certinly stronger in numbers and often that is enough to stop someone who is not angry or not thinking clearly. I'm glad it all worked out ok.

Open I often forget to think, you know others don't know I have PTSD and other issues. They don't do what they do because they are trying ot be mean, it is just how they are and it is just how I react. If they knew and understood surely they would not do the things they do. I try to give folks the benefit of the doubt.

I've just started reading a book. It's called "Receiving Love". It is about how difficult it is to recieve love. Eventhough some one may lower there voice and change there tone, it is still difficult to allow and recieve touch and love. There is a difference in allowing and recieving. I really hope this book has some useful points. I hope I can remember them. W/ ADD and dyslexia, it is quite difficult to retain anything I read. But maybe this will hit home enough that it will stick for a little while.