Thank you whoswho and myopicdreams for both of your very enouraging posts.

".. is that you simply cannot focus on it with your eating disorder mind and hope to achieve it; you must look at it with a mind completely foreign to the one you currently know"
I keep forgetting, thank you for reminding me!

"What I'm getting from your post is a general feeling that you don't believe you are good enough as you are- that you are "supposed" to be something different than you- and I am very sorry to think you are feeling this way."

I guess you´re right. Noticing helps.

I really love that I can talk to people on here.