OHHH, I didn't know you have dislexia as well, oh that too will harbor feelings of "inadequacy" and often people with dislexia are mistreated because others are ignorant of what they can and cannot do. They do feel inadequate, but they also have a lot of drive as well. And, they "can" be very hard on themselves.

I raised a daughter with dislexia, and when she was small and trying to draw she blew into a rage and got so upset. I had never seen her do this, and it was because she was trying to draw a giraffe and could not do it. I made sure I took time out to sit with her and show her that even though she could not draw a giraffe she would turn what she did draw into something nice, even make it an adventure.

I had to spend many times talking her down from being way too hard on herself. Her trainers (horse riding trainers) all knew not to pick on her if she made mistakes at the shows because she was already much too hard on herself. I sat and talked to her trainer and we did team work to help my daughter learn how to accept mistakes and just keep learning. There was never pressure to win, my daughter put that on herself, and we had to be there to make sure she kept learning to enjoy what she did accomplish and that the rest will come.

I am wondering if your husband is also not understanding how the dislexia challenges you and he instead punishes you for things you cannot help. My daughter's boyfriend did this with her and it was "abuse" and even though she tried to explain to him how she "thinks" and "processes" information, he would still push too much at her and got mad at her if she "didn't remember everything he said".

I am so glad she finally broke up with him. He was not the type that could understand her, and he had too many issues of his own.

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