I've been diagnosed with purely O OCD last month but I don't know if my thoughts are obsessions or already delusions. I don't know if I'm losing my grip on reality but just a good few hours ago, a random thought popped into my head: "What if everyone were cats or aliens and I'm just imagining them as people?" It never stops to bother me now and even though I know it's completely ridiculous, I just can't help but worry that I might start to believe it and see people that way. It's like my belief systems are being challenged cause I don't have a set religion as of yet. (i.e.: my OCD's caused by some entity) and I don't know what to do. I've always had faith in science and now it's hit me that there's probably some supernatural forces at work in my mind even though that sounds a bit absurd. I've found solace and comfort in the company of people when I have OCD panic attacks so maybe my brain did this for me to become more miserable. I just don't know what to believe anymore. I've been on two meds and they helped me feel like myself again for two weeks but then it's back to this situation as soon as I dabbled with the idea of something paranormal working against me. I just fear losing control and becoming clinically insane and non-functioning. :/ Do you think I'm slowly slipping into schizophrenia or insanity? Are these just obsessive thoughts or already delusions? I worry that because of my obssessional thinking about these things, I might start to believe/do them. For example, whenever I talk to someone now, the thought that they might be an alien in disguise persists to poke through my mind even though I know that sounds ridiculous. Like if I saw or read a symptom (talking to the television, searching for hidden messages in music), it horrifies me that I might just lose control and start to do them. I also become anxious that I might develop strange and false beliefs because I flew off my tether already. What should I do? This is making me miserable. Please help ASAP!
Note: I'm currently on Lexapro and Rivotril.