Hi Codel, welcome to PC. You have been grieving the loss of your cousins, of course you are going to be teary. Have you been talking about your grief with anyone in your family? You have also just had a huge change in your life, changing from being home schooled your whole life to being in a public school for only a few months now. These 2 issues are huge. Can you go to the school counselor to talk about these issues? I will support you here.