I am not on meds at the moment, and don't plan on taking meds ever again. They're not worth it, they mess with the brain/body too much. They are not natural. I live in a small town, so not many options for psychiatrists or else. I have a doctor app booked for January 10th though.

It's probably something like social phobia, Idk why I keep telling myself that can't be it. The 'Delusion of persecution' isn't a delusion. Any decent amount of research into it will prove that.