I've realized that where my friend Mary and I are in our lives right now, we've grown apart. We simply are at different parts of our lives. We're 24 and been friends since middle school. We've lost touch throughout the years, been in fights and at the end of it all we could still share a good laugh.

Now realizing that we are at different parts in our life, it is disappointing that I don't have the same interest as her's. She's still at the point in her life to go to the bars, drink and hang out in the big crowd. This is something that she's recently got back into for the last 4-6 months now. Before that she was mellow and it was more because she was in a relationship.

Don't get me wrong, I dont judge her in anyway because of the choices she's made but I simply don't have any interest in any of it. I'm not a drinker or a smoker. OH my goodness she's a chronic chain smoker. I seriously would get choked up if I didn't move away from her while she smokes.

Right now my mind is set on school and my health. I've recently been diagnoised with a seizure disorder and it has been managable. There are simply good days and then the BAD days.
I don't mind having a good night out but not the way she's doing it.

I've actually now thought about just wanting to avoid her phone calls. When she calls me and thats about twice a week, she's always tell me how she's been out drinking for the last few days with her other friends. She would call me 12-2pm, just waking up and tell me how she came home 5am because she was out drinking. She knows better then to invite me over when all they're going to do is drink because I'll be the only one sitting on the sofa watching tv with green tea. LoL!!!

Its sad to say but I think her way of going out now, compared to how it was before is her way of dealing with her lonliness. With the way she's dealing with it, I simply can't be there for her. She's now drinking more often and smoking WAY too much.

Where I'm at in my life, even though it may be hard and lonely but I'm trying to take better care of myself, especially with the seizure disorder. Where as for my friend Mary, she's acting out her circumstances with drinking, smoking and all else that comes with it. Its sad that she calls me to tell me all she's been up as though it would impress me.

Its sad that I might have to distance myself from her.