granite, my T says it is the day in, day out abuse that is so hard to recover from. It just grinds at you constantly. It creates more complex problems than abuse that is more episodic or just happens a few times. You just keep trying and keep sloughing through the mess, I guess. I do not know the answers. I just know that I keep putting one foot in front of the other. Just keep trying, granite. Your T will help you.