I understand Rose. I feel disappointed when I lose it too. I hope you get good news from the MRI. I have PN which cause some strange nerve and muscle activity. When I first got it I worried about what might happen down the road. Two words. Que sera
Until it happens it hasn't happened and it might not ever happen. I hope it doesn't happen but try to not let it cause you grief thinking about the possibility.
Have you been getting out much? You don't have to answer... don't want to push you into being on the computer too long.