I've had a really bad week, the last 2-3 days have been really crappy. It got bad enough I can't hide it and put on my happy face at all. I've tried the things that sometimes help, and none of them are helping now. Deep, deep depression. On the verge of psychotic, with my voices going, and not just the regular 2...LOTS. They keep looking at me, staring at me...and I hate being stared at. I'm sad, angry, scared, I don't want this anymore. Not the physical pain, the crappy emotional pain, or the really crappy mental *****. I don't know what to do, I don't think I want to die...but I don't know what else to do. I'm lost and alone.

I feel bad for posting, I haven't been giving/replying much recently. But I haven't felt good in months, so weak and hurting.