Hello, I am wildchild,this is may alias,as Im known by friends.I was diagonsed PTSd may years ago, and last year diagnosed Bipoar.Ive had this Bipolar disorded I suspect since my teen years.Ive been on 3 different meds, nothing seems to help the depression, just seems to keep the mania down.it just keeps getting more intense.Ive recently lost my father,denied SSI,lost my dog of 12 yrs too.If being told "that things could be worse","get a positive attitude", "snap out of it" thorwing away my Colonzpin, and tell me"your handling things beautifully without it" is family support,then thats the extent of it, so I also turned to this site for help outside theropy that isnt helping.Im expected to help care for my mother,no-one wants her to be alone, and I smoke like a freight train.BTw, my spelling sux too,so please forgive me.