Mspearl, Extremely thrilled to meet you and happy you took time to post a reply! I hope you find someone besides us on PC someone you actually can see and be near unlike through the computer even know it can be nice. Yes it truly is hard I did not know what was going on and was upset when i was told I was out of realty. I do not see it as a sickness but as a gift. God bless you all people sorry it took me awhile to reply I am very busy but not too busy to think of you!