Hey, I'm kinda really annoyed at myself. I went to my first na meeting night before last and even though I went to the pub straight after the meeting I managed to stay fully sober yesterday. Today iv been trying so hard to do 2nd day but without even realising it I smoked a joint and bagged up some coke to take to a party later, whereas I had planned on taking a load of different soft drinks. I can't believe I didn't even notice what id done until afterwards, how can it be that natural to me without me even noticing.