Things *do* get better, at least partly. I'm still just as nuts as I used to be, but I'm older now and more financially stable. Not having to rely on others is a big weight off of your shoulders. That said, I'm still tucked away in a little apartment....alone. It's not that I don't want to get into a relationship, it's just that I'm an emotional vacuum. I don't want to put anyone through that ever again.